On what comes next when the diagnosis is scary …
There’s a scene from the movie Aliens where Private Hudson, played by Bill Paxton, gives up when he gets bad news.
Private Hudson : That’s it, man. Game over, man! Game over!
The topic of this particular blog is diabetes. The author, my enchanting partner Lietta, is a fighter. Fighters fight their battles in an assortment of ways.
The process is in fact mostly a matter of trial and error. With new information the first question seems to be, can I trust this. So more research until you have additional sources asserting the same points.
At that point, your trust factor must be called up. In so doing, the informing – which is a process that never ends – leads to confidence factors the come into play whenever things like, medication, diet and exercise are involved. After all, those three things seem to be the most tangible actions involving actual tactics.
The additional mix is contemplation which may manifest itself in an assortment of ways; meditation, prayer, discussion and conversation. In that regard, there is an intangible that can be neither defined nor ignored. The human spirit – whatever that is – receives things from sources not directly connected to the western analytic psychology that focuses on scientific methods that demand measurement.
The human subconscious has always been wiser than the conscious – probably because the conscious lives in a world of increasing distractions, many of which are in the absolutely useless or silly category.
Hunches, intuition, promptings – even informed guesswork are the things from which our greatest inventions, discoveries and applications have come.
Bottom line, when you have to confront something that is not going to go away, the strongest strategy is search, ponder and discern.
You may not succeed. Heck, Lietta and I have a running joke that is kind of related to Private Hudson quoted above.
“We aren’t gonna make it. None of us in the end will live forever. But that does not mean that today, tomorrow or next week the gate will slam shut.
Not there yet.
Still lots of things to get done.
I like this imagery, as it reminds me that I only have so much energy to give in a day. The site has useful information for people and supporters working the journey of diabetes.
Well, shoot. The diabetes diagnosis is real enough. Darn, here I am doing the stages of denial, bargaining, anger, and I don’t think I have yet done depression in a profound way, there was the grief depression of losing my mother and for the moment, I am Very Happy again, even with Diabetes diagnosis. I like to think I’ve reached acceptance. Even so my experience with grief is that there is cycling ups and downs.
I am Very disappointed that the Paleo way of eating did not prevent my diabetes diagnosis. Although I am equally pleased that after several years of eating paleo, vegetables, fruits, no sugar, etc. are a way of life. I have to admit upon learning of the diagnosis, in my thoughts, I said what the hell, and began taking up all the foods on our No list. I feel though, that was more initial reaction. We are back to trying to manage the blood glucose levels, eating the healthy foods, and diabetic specific, not paleo specific.
I am also Very disappointed that for the years my mother had diabetes 2, I did not research it as well as I have my own. I do wish she would have shared more with me about her feelings as she was attempting to cope. She died last summer of cancer, that affected her liver, bile ducts. It was though the outcome of years of diabetes, fatty liver to cancer. She had lost her sight, her pancreas was not working with the hormone insulin, she had diabetic neuropathy in her feet, and I like to beleve that when the diagnosis of metastisized cancer arrived last June, she was weary of parts of her body acting in rebellion to her love of life and living.
I had realized that my own body was not performing as it once had and the gradual symptoms relative to diabetes were slowly forthcoming over the years. I had hoped that diet and exercise (walking) would keep the mean parts away – not going to happen. I would say I have been what medical likes to call ‘pre-diabetic’ for several years now, and this last dr visit the numbers were over the top, so I entered the diabetic zone. And now it is not so much a sad thing, appreciating what is left in years to me and loving the hell out of my husband who is the ultimate, major support in our journey into diabetes.
Having learned what I can learn about the disease, I understand it is not curable, I also understand it is not strictly because one is overweight, and sedentary, it can be genetic, and the very disease of the pancreas unwilling to do the job it once did can cause some of the weight, the desire to do less as the systemic effects in the body generate different desires. I can well remember my years of dancing, the years of Aerobic teaching, when I could move with flexibility, easily, and now my body has slowed down so much, it is almost a distant memory that I could, I did, it was real then, this is real now. I am happy though, life has picked up for both of us in spending our retirement days loving each other, we are Best Friends, as well as man and wife. And there are grandchildren who light me up when we get opportunity to see them, visit with them. Overall our life, having moved to different city, different state is the best it can be for me, for us. I am happy.
This is to be an introductory paragraph, and I intend this blog to be not only about my own journey on the Diabetes journey track, as well as some of the recipes, foods that have worked for me up to this point.
The journey I already walked, included immediately losing the weight, adding exercise and along the way experimented with foods and diet. Starting then with Keto diet for weight loss and control. Seems that many are using the Keto diet to lose weight and quickly. Yes it does work for that reason, and I used it to quickly lose weight given my diagnosis of diabetes 2. I worked at it, along with exercise daily for 3-4 months, lost enough weight to bring my glucose numbers under control. However! It is very limited in what foods are considered Keto safe, and frankly speaking, after years of eating without weight gain, I do not at all like the foods considered safe on Keto diet. In fact, some foods on that diet are a bit of a surprise to me as I had not considered them safe or healthy foods in my otherwise foods days, ie, like pickles, or cream cheese. And definitely not the stevia, which acts as a sugar replacement. I think I would rather go without than try to substitute anything for the sugar. So I did – go without sugar!
Gradually I switched to low carb type recipes, and it is fairly easy to look up low carb receipes easily enough on internet. I believe I have my blood sugar/glucose numbers under control, and recently the A1C came in at 5.8 or thereabouts, meaning I am in the safe category. I think safe as long as I continue to eat as I have been eating, low carb, and exercise. Even so, it doesn’t take much for my numbers to go over the top, telling me that the diabetes I do have is still active and can act up in measureable numbers any time I shift away from the safe foods (low carb).
I have a breakfast each morning my husband makes of banana, avocado, meat, to make sure my body is getting the potassium and fiber it need. I can count on it daily! Throughout the day I can snack of what I call the ‘safe foods’ and along my way, decided not to give up fruits. Spring and Summer, even Autumn seems to allow for some kind of safe fruit, ie, berries, cantaloupe, oranges, watermelon, or something in the fruit family to make sure my body is getting fiber it needs. Helps immensely with my bowel movements, which I had concerns that Keto dieting was removing from me. In following the charts, making sure I ‘stick’ two hours after a meal, the numbers are gratifying. Here is the charted numbers I am following having searched them out on internet.
Fasting = 70 to 120 ceiling. I usually do my stick in the morning when I first wake and get up after washing my hands. The numbers are in the 80s, and that works well enough. However, if the numbers, ie, this morning 85 go down too close to 70 I would be concerned as too low will generate too low blood sugar will generate bodily reaction that I do not want.
Two Hours After Meal or Exercise = ceiling of 140. Higher than 140 is not a safe or good place for numbers to be. Mostly my numbers are at 100 + and when measure at over 140, I feel extreme disappointment, and concern as reminds me the blood sugar/glucose/hormones are still in the diabetes 2 range.
Given that I got the diagnosis in 2017 a couple years ago, I have lost the weight and pushed my A1C number down. I am relieved and pleased my doctor gave me the diagnosis as up to that point the numbers meant nothing to me, so the years of pre-diabetes numbers really could have been strong indicators to me that something was amiss. It took the stress of my mother’s dying in August 2017, and the years of caring for her prior to that time that put my numbers over the top. I was frightened then, have my diabetes 2 track fairly managed now. We will see.
I am 68 years old, my body still shows evidence of diabetes though, I rather doubt that will heal itself, ie, the brown color under my arms, the pouchy stomach even with the weight loss, the face blemishes I didn’t have before (a visiting nurse suggested that was body’s way of releasing toxins, okay that will work as good excuse for a while), and the itches on my palms if I eat wrong foods. I am watching my body, more than I’d like, as in maybe vanity, or selfishness or …..